I just woke up from a series of dreams where I was deeply afraid of something unknown. In one, I feared my own lack of memory; I spent the dream hunting for a name I’d forgotten. It was the name of my third child, a middle child, a boy. Only when I woke up did […]
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My Creative Autobiography, Part 3
Today’s post is the conclusion of my creative autobiography, based on Twyla Tharp’s 33 Questions. I hope you enjoyed this series, because answering these questions has been a true miracle for me. It has opened my eyes to the real sources and themes of my creative life, and that knowledge will have lasting impact on […]
The Path of Anxiety in my Mind
I would not classify myself as an anxious person, but I do have a predisposition towards feeling anxiety once in awhile. When I’m feeling anxiety, there’s an unnaturalness in my brain, a threat of unpredictability in the world, and an extra layer over my reactions to people and events. My brain catches all of my […]
Practicing Bravery on Flute and Life
Yesterday I played my flute, which is not something I do very often in a non-teaching environment. I used to have major skills; I don’t anymore. It can be depressing to try and play a piece that I performed for a college recital, for example, and listen to myself make multiple mistakes I’d never have […]
Climbing Up The Ladder of Needs
Whenever life throws me curveballs, I picture myself slipping down a few rungs on Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs. Usually, I’m able to balance up near the top, my family’s basic needs maintained by habit and routine, freeing my mind to focus on higher-level concerns. I can write. I can read. I can make time for […]
Ambition Is Worth The Fear
I have a dream, a goal, an ambition. It’s the most important thing in the world to me, after my family. I want to have a book published. (I was about to write, “I want to be a published author”- I almost forgot that I already am! And I’m very proud of publishing a short […]