The one habit I can’t seem to make stick for myself is meditation, and it’s the one habit I think I really need. I’ve been on spring break this week, but even though I’m not thinking much about work, my mind is still going all the time. Learning how to calm my mind is vitally important, and meditation would help immensely. Yet I can’t seem to make myself meditate.

It’s not part of my daily routine in the way that exercise and reading are. It’s not something I crave doing, like writing, even though the effects of it are crave-worthy. I guess I just don’t enjoy it, and it feels like it takes too much effort even when I only do it for 5 minutes.

I’ve heard other people come out and say “I’m just not a meditator.” And I’ve thought about saying it too. But I have made meditation stick in the past. I’ve closed my eyes for 5 minutes every day at work. I’ve progressed through whole packs of meditation sessions in Headspace. I also like doing things that are meditation-adjacent: on my way to work, I have a habit of doing alternate-nostril breathing; I like doing savasana pose in my occasional yoga classes.

I think it’s just a matter of finding a place for it. Maybe when I’m back at work, it’ll be easier. I can incorporate it into my day– right after lunch, maybe. A fresh start, right after break, might make it stick.

Being mindfully present, and having a peaceful mind, are valuable to me. It’s time to act on that value.