Empathy Is Both The Problem And The Solution

As most of you gathered from my last post— and newsletter subscribers have been getting even more content on this– I’m been having a tough winter. I’m burned out, occasionally anxious, often depressed. I’m still functioning, but struggling.

Why? Well, because I’m a public school teacher and a mother of two young children, both of which are intense caregiving roles. I read a quote recently– I wish I could remember the source– that empathy takes an enormous amount of energy. I thought, oh man, that’s why I’m exhausted all the time. My empathy radar is constantly re-tuning and re-adjusting to the 150 kids I teach and my family at home. Empathy is a strength of mine, and that’s a wonderful gift– for my students and my kids. But for me, it’s draining. This doesn’t mean I stop doing it. But during long stretches without a break– like this winter, for instance– it means I can get burned out, anxious, depressed, and in critical need of repair.

So I’ve tried a few things this week.

First, I tried not keeping a to-do list, in the hopes it would mute my perfectionist tendencies. This sounded like a good idea at the time, but it didn’t work. It just made me more stressed about the things I couldn’t remember if I had to do. I’m back to lists this week, but I decided to take the month of March to experiment with how I do my planning– scaling back, tracking less, taking things off my plate.

Second, I tried taking a tech sabbath. This is something I’ve wanted to do for awhile but it didn’t feel feasible until we moved and got a landline. Now I can text my husband, parents, and mother-in-law that I’ll be offline for a few hours but if they need me, they can call the house phone. I started with Saturday afternoon for about 4 hours. For the first hour, I did get that urge to check my phone, but the temptation died down fairly quickly and I felt relieved to be untethered. I’m hoping to expand this idea into Friday evenings and Saturday afternoon/evening (Saturday mornings I’m typically out with the kids, so I need my phone with me).

Third, for the first time ever, I tried CBD. I drank a CBD-infused tea (Harney & Sons CBD chamomile mint). It did nothing for me. I thought it would relax me, maybe help me sleep. Nope. I actually had more trouble falling asleep that night. But it did taste good!

The only thing that really helped this week was this: I extended some empathy to myself.

When I was tired, I slept extra, and didn’t berate myself for missing a workout.

When I was antsy, I took a walk or did some stretching.

When I craved connection, I asked my kids to snuggle me on the couch while we watched Junior Baking Show.

When I craved disconnection from a difficult situation at work that’s been causing a lot of stress, I put my phone on silent.

It doesn’t sound like much. But extending empathy to myself, rather than others, is hard for me. It’s probably hard for most mothers/teachers/women, and many other groups as well. I’m programmed to put others first. I’ll probably never be able to put myself first completely. But I can at least try to be kind to myself.

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